give

I gave in to you,
blue eyes,
light hair
soft skin

i gave in to you,
but you make your attention seem
like charity-

like giving to the poor-

i gave up on the violin
and
i gave up on the oil paints


i gave up on being a lawyer
or a dentist
or a saint


i gave up on books
and cigarettes,


i gave up on pleasing people
or parents
or saving anyone

i gave up on god,
what makes you think i won't give up on you.

09'