Bangs ,
I’m a sucker for bangs.
And the Beanie-
Perfect hair.
Patty Hearst…
You are
A dream I had
When I was 15.
The coolest fucken girl-
Here I go…
She sang the cool
Song-
“Alll I ever wanted,
all I ever needed…”
Be cool!
Cool…
It’s -
“It is all I ever wanted…’
I felt angry at the world-
I felt angry at something
Without a name.
My father was
an angry man.
Raised an angry boy.
Who grew up to be an angry man.
My father would just buy
me things after the beatings,.
my love, my time-
Transactional
Bribed
Capitalistic
Bought and paid for-
My favorite toy was the Millennium Falcon.
Buy the time:
Like Escorts,
Like pay phone long distance calls,
Like Time Shares.
Capitalism moves in mysterious ways,
Capitalism is barely getting by on Social Security,
Capitalism is as capitalism does.
“Bye bye love
Bye bye tenderness
Hello loneliness-“
Buy the time:
Like a peep show
Like a parking spot downtown,
Like a vibrating bed in a motel.
I was angry at the world.
There was nothing I wanted to buy-
Nothing to own or rent.
"Can't buy me love"-
(There is a song)
Love.
The only real thing.
I just wanted my mother not to hate me.
She raised me, to hate me.
The note I wrote said.
The note I left read,
"By the time you read this…"
But-
I stayed for my best friend.
I stayed for my father,
Who I forgave
years ago.
Who every night
I clean,
wipe their ass,
and
throw out their piss.
I tell my father stories
of the book
I'm writing.
I tell him absurd jokes,
I watch Star Wars with him.
I do funny voices.
I play the bass for him badly.
I stayed.
I remain
I endure-
By the time you read this,
I will
be alive,
kicking and screaming.
Alive!
By the way,
I am still angry at the world.
But-
I realized this is only borrowed time.
We steal what we can, like thieves,
to survive.
we are beggars, when it comes to love.
But what little I have is yours.
It is the golden rule- [gilded]
Forgiveness
Empathy
Compassion
I give freely-
The golden rule won't cover the rent,
but lets hope
it'll
at least pay some dues.
So I was in line, at the Starbucks,
When I came across an honest lady
waiting in line.
She either started small talk or I did
I wasn’t paying attention-
Blah blah blah
Whoa Nelly!
I hate to disappoint you lady but…
.look
At me.
Why would I …But hold the horses.
Why the long
Face?
What -
What,
she said-
That was the kicker.
Blah blah blah
She said “I’m good at faking interest in people…blah
I don’t like being around others… bla
It’s part of my job… bla
She shares how it is ironic,
that she’s around
them all the time…
Blah
Her face is long.
Bony.
Brown hair,
Sandals on her feet
like
She stepped off a Greek urn-
(An urn that’s seen some shit..)
Blah blah blah
She started to talk about her brother,
about how his being the opposite.
I mention Attachment Theory
I suggest …
I imply
Encourage
She look into it…
A lot of people like her
don’t stand a chance until…
Blah blah
It makes her angry.
Its Like I called her dumb-
I Giddy Up.
I get out of this conversation and ride off into
the sunset.
I see her sometimes talking to randoms.
I think it’s part of her job.
I thought she worked with marine animals,
Or just animals in general.
To her
maybe...
What’s the difference?
I dunno I wasn't really listening.
Don’t meet many honest people,
Most just are horrible people
telling it like it is!
No filter-
Crass -
Common-
Tactless
and blunt
as a shoes heel.
Bla Bla Bla
who gives a fuck about attachment theory...
Well
She might see
she lying to herself,
the way
I lie to myself -
We need others. If we have any chance of making it on this rock,
we need others.
Bla Bla Bla...
Maybe-
I wasn’t paying attention
she loves me not…
I don't give a fuck!
Shoot your shot.
Never met you
Or maybe I did
Who can tell- Oh well...
Fuck it, shoot your
Shot. Sisters!
I'm open to the idea of
speaking in tongues-
Doing tongue twisters and
making butter batter bitter
better butter makes the batter better.
I dunno I was just listening to
Slick Rick or MC Ricky D-
Or as you may have heard of him as...
Rick Da Ruler!
And with a Tick Tock and you
don't Stop...
"I cant be your lover!"
Mercurial.
Her whim moves with an alacrity.
It is
Nebulous
Like the air
In cotton candy-
It’s barely a whisper
Of an
Anything-
An Apparition, out
Of thin air.
Thin
Thick
Heir
To
The first chill of the winter.
Nebulous-
If you know what I mean?
Do you know what I
mean?
It’s late getting later
but
there is enough
Life at this party
to
keep
us young.
So many new faces
But more
Importantly
The old ones.
I see her.
There is gonna be an after party-
But lord almighty
I'm lookin forward to the After After Party..
fill
a thousand suns.
I never fear
losing it
for
It
is
I.
My art will live on.
I have no-
Doubt,
Regret,
Children-
My art will live on-
I never had any children of my own.
There were so many women
who thought that was a bad a idea.
And the one
Crazy enough-
Enough,
just not enough.
Teasing-
“Hot enough for you?”
Enough is enough.
There is a mountain high enough,
There is a valley low enough.
I have enough wisdom to
light up
the moon-
It’s enough for
Me,
even if I was
never
enough for you.
Fair enough?
Alone, leave, enough, well.
Leave well enough alone…
Enough?
Well?
I guess the best way to describe him
Is like uh, Viking Goth?
I dunno.
The dude is super tall dressed in black and
Eyeliner I think…
I dunno it’s like going to a zoo-
And seeing something new
Beard creepy eye contacts ect
With eye liner-
He’s trying too hard
I try too, but holy
Fuck!
I’ve never seen one in the wild.
Then again-
at this dive, there is a dude…
Who dresses up in a rainbow body suit
(Mask the whole bit)
to
Sing karaoke-
So, I guess
Silver medal Viking goth…
You can’t win them all.
