The Conductor

How he conducts himself is your
business.

Your choice of who you travel with
from station to station in life.

But when
you take the same train
of the same name
as before-

You end up
where it claimed to take you,
down the same tracks
it did before.

When the conductor yells
"All aboard!"

When the whistle blows.

When the train is departing,
you don't have to go.

You've already been to the end of this line.

You don't have to lie to yourself,
that it will be different this time-
and
in the darkness of the tunnel
whisper to yourself-

"I think I can, I think I can, I think I can."

The Whole Kit and Caboodle

Take it,
Take what is yours.
Take the blood i owe.
Take it in small drops
or in buckets red and rusted.

Take-

And when you're done,
when the stone is dry-
take some more.

Take the boring Mondays.
Take the socks on the floor.
Take the last beer.

Take them too.

Take the souvenir cups.
Take the lonesome nights.
Take the dull razor.

Take everything, 
from the VHS tapes
to the kitchen sink-
(it's still dirty).

Take back the college education
worth thousand of dollars-
 repossess it.
 we'll call it even.
(I am not doing much with it anyways)

Take the last shred of me
that dreams.

Take it all,
The whole kit and caboodle.


 13'

the wall

Women
claim the chairs
next to them with their
purses-

Little walls.
Little boarders.
keeping you away.

saving a seat
perhaps for no one
perhaps for a ghost
or
perhaps
the for the one that got away all those years ago.

(Maybe she still thinks he might come back)

Either way, the
seat is taken.

Occupied 

And you will either have to find another

Seat

Or 

Stand

(With your right hand 

over your heart)

For
They've claimed the chair
for Themselves
God
and
Country

13'

Relief effort

Yes, it looks like it might rain-
and
I agree this summer heat is killing me too-
and
Boy,
it "is" pretty windy out there.

I have had enough talk
about the
weather.

Enough talk about the world that I can not
control,
as the hand of God fiddles with the
thermostat-

and if not the weather
then
you talk
about
sports
the news
gossip-
anything to kill the
silence.-

is the silence so bad?
or
is it worse to share what is really
going on.

There is a light
as bright as any sun
in the soul of every man
and woman-
but it can also
rain-
hail-
floods of joy, as well as sorrow.

I want to know what storm brews in you.-
What relief can I offer you?

La Maestra

A veces,
cuando uno es pobre
las únicas
riquezas
que tenemos
son nuestros sueños.

Yo he soñado de ti-
Maestra.

La oscuridad
esconde mi pobreza.

En la oscuridad,
la memoria de
tu rostro
brilla
como la luna
dentro de mí.

En mis sueños
conozco tu amor.

Pero son sólo sueños
de un pobre.

Durante el día
miro a la maestra
caminar por la escuela.

A veces me mira
y sonria,
pero la
luz del dia
expone mi pobreza-
expuesto mi vergüenza.

Una vez ella me
había ofrecido tomar un
café y ayuda me
convertir en un maestro.

Era mi oportunidad
en la luz del día.

Pero yo vivo en los
sueños de la oscuridad.

No puedo perder
a alguien
que nunca era mío.

Con el tiempo ella
se fue,
y los sueños se fueron,

y en la oscuridad no tenía nada
más que
oscuridad

“Desperte-
desperte
de los sueños-
y vive en la luz.”

fue la última
lección
que me enseñó
La Maestra


12'/13'

We'll Get Em Next Time

I didn't get the promotion.
The fix was in.

And after that
the birds sang horribly,
my clothes weren't fitting well,
all the traffic lights were red
and
there were more women disinterested in me,
than usual.

I didn't get the promotion.
A consequence of speaking up-
when it was the right thing to do.

They had fired
one poor bastard already,
for speaking up.

Nobody wanted to be next.

But I wasn't
Frightened-

No,
I was scared shitless
the kinda of way, you don't anyone to remember
but
I spoke up anyways-
while
everyone else stayed quite

(and I don't blame them).
 
As a consequence,
I didn't get the promotion,
the bosses best friend did-

We'll get 'em next time.

For a mans worth is what he thinks it is,
and
I think pretty damn highly of myself.

Sure, I didn't win,
(But hot damn)
I sure as Hell didn't lose either.

Tomorrow
the birds will sing beautifully,
my clothes will fit well,
all the traffic lights will all be green.
and
The women will bat their lashes, fold up their parasols
and
drop their handkerchiefs.


13'

Alive

the wild man
of pearl jam-
put on a
show
in those day.

Pure energy
in the hearts
of the children-
listening and
watching

as the
lead singer climbs
the rafters-
jumps to his
death,
(a death more heroic
than
a kiss from
any shotgun.)

He
falls
through the emptniess
and
into the hands 
of children.

They catch him-
Alive.

Hard to Say

She said,
"No one will ever love you as much"

But I've rarely
felt loved by her words or her touch.

Her childhood dreams were lost long ago.
She is the unhappiest woman I know.

I've no right to judge,
because your life has been rough,
You created me and somehow that just isn't enough.

And the most horrible words come out when we fight.
And lords knows I don't need to always be right.

She said
"No one will ever love you as much"-
The need for love is a crippling crutch.

I will always want a place to belong-
But, please God just let her be wrong.


2013