Beat

Life is a song-

my heart keeps time and
beats along perfectly
with that song.

tonight
my heart played along to the song of fear-
as I tried to revisit the past-
percussion
pumping and
pounding
performing-
perfectly,
it puts on a show-
plays the song of fear-

I know this song and my
heart continues to play it until
i hear and feel the next-
BEAT

the song of calm
it plays a gentler beat-
soothing calming

the drummer knows all the songs,
from pain to pleasure
lover to loss- fight or flight-

the drummer drops a dope ass beat
to this
epic song of life-

my heart
plays to the beat of a different drummer

different in so many delicious distinctions
different in so many disguises
destined to deliver
[because I'm not beat yet]

my heart
plays to the beat of a different drummer
and that
drummer is me-

09'

Dig

It's not worth it to take a cheap dig at you.

I've dug deep
and
there wasn't
anything there.

don't feel disappointed-
even cheap perfume,
[ by any other name or dig would smell the same]

09'

walk smile rinse repeat

How many times are you gonna walk by and

smile, before something happens

How many smiles is it gonna take before,
i just begin to
start talking-

How much talking is gonna take
before i ask-

Well, at this rate honey,
i'll be cured before you can try and fix me

in the mean time,
i'll take as many smiles from a pretty girl
as I can get
for a rainy day-

and it rains alot.


09'

Blink

Blink 182 is everything you say they are-

I enjoy them anyways.

A guilty pleasure
but a pleasure none the less.

you had to be there.
young,
juvenile,
and teenage
discovering music for the first time.
and there was never enough.

You knew every music scene
from your room in the valley-

they were from
San Diego
like
Lucy's Fur Coat,
and Rocket from the Crypt,

before MTV,
they were another punk loser band from San Diego

before MTV
they were funny
immature
and fun.

the rebel girls,
had made it all too serious

music was far too serious.

it was nice to remember
why being young
male
and dumb
were fun.

they were punks,
madcap,
juvenile-

They are everything you say they are-
no matter how wrong you are,
were,
and always will be.


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Princess Leia

I made
Princess Leia cry
because
I
didn't know how to cry.


Raised to believe I
was evil,
the dark side inside,
i made her cry.

She was stronger than me.
a rebel fighting the idea of empire.

she was stronger than me
she forgave me.


She gave
me something better
than some makeshift romance.

She says
that there is still good in me-

She has given me
a New Hope.

09'

Figure 8

So some lady had eight babies on my birthday-
it was a good day as any to be born.

I figure eight babies
(all Aquarius)
are gonna need some advice.

and here it is:

Conquer this world!
take it-

[you were the center of the universe
and stars
when you were born Aquarians
and given energy and capabilities possessed by superheros and shaman envied by mad scientist- romance novelist-
hearts sensitive enough to feel the sound of compassion and mind to meditate on the invisible taste of song ]

Conquer this world!

It might take some time,
I've been working on it myself for awhile now-
but you might get there first-
after all there are eight of you and one of me-


09'

Surprise Starwars Party

"Once upon a time in a galaxy far way", called Pacomia
(with much love, thank you )


They lept out of the dark,
and caught me by surprise-

and something unfamiliar, called- shear joy-
appeared on my face.

They lept out and yelled surprise-
and confetti and affection
fell upon me-

They lept out in starwars costumes-
cooler than you think, cooler than you imagine-
ice cold- cooler than cool.
.

They lept out and yelled SURPRISE!
and believe me I was

Dry ice, Vader, Ewoks, lightsabers, and Tequila

there was never anything like it before, and there will never be anything like it again-
(in my life anyways)

Storm troopers, Peasant, Princess Leia, and chocolate cheesecake-

Its not every day your friends will dress up in
costumes for you-
Its not every day your friends forgive you,
with cake,
Its not every day you feel like anyone ever cared.

They planned and plotted for weeks
They planned and plotted for weeks-

I had always expected they
would
one day
plan and plot my miserable end-

But this was much better,
by far,
much better- indeed

09'

Time line (part 1)

PART 1

I am as old
Punk rock,

I am as old as
Star Wars

I am as old
Annie Hall

I am as old as
Screech, that punk from coldplay, the bigger punk from my chemical romance
dawson, smallville dude, kanye west, even pinche napolean dynamite.

I can not tell when my timeline will end, only
when my time line began,
and who is also running this race-

groucho and chaplin died
year I was born.

so did elvis-

I was born the year elvis died-
nature has a way of balancing things out.

09'